So this week was one of those tough, emotionally shitty weeks where there is a happy ending, but you have to be miserable for awhile first before you get it. My experiences this week made me do a compare/contrast analysis of my eighteen-year-old self to my nearly twenty-eight-year-old self, and how I would have handled a similar situation back then. Answer – not well. It’s hard to believe that being eighteen was nearly a decade ago, but I’m grateful that this particular stage of my life is behind me.
Because, true story – I was kind of crazy at 18. And who isn’t? I was selfish, I was emotionally impulsive, and I was entirely too stubborn for my own good. I realized recently that though my main path in life has been “goody-goody,” I’ve still made tons of mistakes. Making the leap from childhood to adulthood is never an easy transition, and it was a long, hard struggle for me.
But I’m grateful for my past and what it’s taught me, because I wouldn’t be here today without all those cringe-inducing moments (like the time I called up a guy and yelled at him months after an altercation had taken place between us. YAY FOR NINETEEN! WHAT A GREAT AGE!) I don’t feel like I’m an entirely wise woman yet, but I feel like I’m much more empathetic and considerate than I used to be. I try very hard to see two sides of a situation and even harder not to act solely based on my emotions, like I used to.
My twenties have been completely revelatory, especially twenty-seven. With age comes increased responsibility, wrinkles, and white hair, but you know what? I’ll take it. I’d much rather accrue wisdom as I get older rather than be that starry-eyed but somewhat insane teenager sitting in her dorm room and having a pinhole view of the world.
Enough about that.
Two friends of mine recently became engaged, and I am very happy for them. They have been together for a long time and are very much in love. Congratulations – may you have a happy and beautiful life together.
It’s after midnight and since I got maybe five hours of sleep last night, I should probably go to bed. Good night everyone! Friday is oh so close.